To Keith
I am going to be writing letters to Keith until he is able to get the interent. Hope you people do not mind! I need the space to vent and it helps to make him feel closer. I will still be doing regular Blogging too but I thought he could catch up here once he gets connected. Thanks people...
Dear Keith,
You just left a couple of hours ago and I am all torn up inside. I can not stop crying, I have a horrible headache and have not been able to eat all day... I feel so horrible, not something you want to hear I am sure. I cry everytime Em says Dada, she knows something is going on and has been screaming for you. I hope that you can call me before you get on the plane so I can hear your voice on last time before you leave.
I bought a big yellow ribbon for the front door after you left. I called your folks and mine and let them know that you actually did leave. Everyone thinks I should come home and stay there for awhile but I am not going to. I want to be around our things where you feel close to me. Besides, we just got back from NY and I want Em to have her toys and play with her friends. Not to mention that I do not want to leave Elaine. She is torn up as well, we both have been crying all day... I am sure we looked real hot today at Wally World! LOL
My stupid Cell phone is not ringing at all so I have been carrying it so I don't miss any phone calls. I am going to Alltel tomorrow and see how much it costs to cancel our contract. I truly hate that company!
So anyway, our turkey is good... she took a nap when we got back this afternoon. She is playing now. I did some cleaning but plan on doing more tomorrow... not really in the mood.
I know you won't get this for a long time... I just wanted you to know that I missed you from the second you left... this 7 months is going to be so hard but Em and I AND you will make it through. I just have to make it day by day right? I promise that I will try to get stronger, I don't want you to think that I am sitting around just crying, it is just so hard right now. Please please please call me tonight... I love you Keith, Emily loves you... Stay safe Marine, you are in our hearts.... XXOO
Edited to add this...
Keith my Dad and Elaine both called and said that you were trying to call me... Can you friggin believe that neither cell or our LINE phone rang? WTF? I am so mad and upset... I knew you would call if you could and I missed it. I DID get the voicemail though, I don't know why other people could call and your call didn't go through. WHY WHY WHY... I am soooo upset... I miss you already, I can't believe the friggin phones wouldn't work (all friggin 3 of them... Damn it!)... My one chance to talk with you in God knows how longs and none of the damn phones worked. Why does God hate me?
I miss you and love you.... Sorry you couldn't reach me, I was waiting with the phone in my hand and it didn't ring, none of them did. My Dad called and said you were calling me and so did Elaine, why did it work for them and not you? God, I am sooo upset, Why? I don't figgin get it... Call me as soon as you can, I pray the phones work!
Dear Keith,
You just left a couple of hours ago and I am all torn up inside. I can not stop crying, I have a horrible headache and have not been able to eat all day... I feel so horrible, not something you want to hear I am sure. I cry everytime Em says Dada, she knows something is going on and has been screaming for you. I hope that you can call me before you get on the plane so I can hear your voice on last time before you leave.
I bought a big yellow ribbon for the front door after you left. I called your folks and mine and let them know that you actually did leave. Everyone thinks I should come home and stay there for awhile but I am not going to. I want to be around our things where you feel close to me. Besides, we just got back from NY and I want Em to have her toys and play with her friends. Not to mention that I do not want to leave Elaine. She is torn up as well, we both have been crying all day... I am sure we looked real hot today at Wally World! LOL
My stupid Cell phone is not ringing at all so I have been carrying it so I don't miss any phone calls. I am going to Alltel tomorrow and see how much it costs to cancel our contract. I truly hate that company!
So anyway, our turkey is good... she took a nap when we got back this afternoon. She is playing now. I did some cleaning but plan on doing more tomorrow... not really in the mood.
I know you won't get this for a long time... I just wanted you to know that I missed you from the second you left... this 7 months is going to be so hard but Em and I AND you will make it through. I just have to make it day by day right? I promise that I will try to get stronger, I don't want you to think that I am sitting around just crying, it is just so hard right now. Please please please call me tonight... I love you Keith, Emily loves you... Stay safe Marine, you are in our hearts.... XXOO
Edited to add this...
Keith my Dad and Elaine both called and said that you were trying to call me... Can you friggin believe that neither cell or our LINE phone rang? WTF? I am so mad and upset... I knew you would call if you could and I missed it. I DID get the voicemail though, I don't know why other people could call and your call didn't go through. WHY WHY WHY... I am soooo upset... I miss you already, I can't believe the friggin phones wouldn't work (all friggin 3 of them... Damn it!)... My one chance to talk with you in God knows how longs and none of the damn phones worked. Why does God hate me?
I miss you and love you.... Sorry you couldn't reach me, I was waiting with the phone in my hand and it didn't ring, none of them did. My Dad called and said you were calling me and so did Elaine, why did it work for them and not you? God, I am sooo upset, Why? I don't figgin get it... Call me as soon as you can, I pray the phones work!