Nappy Time
I am trying like hec not to bite the skin on my fingers. I have been doing it since I was a little girl. It is a horrible habit. I am sick of it but it is a hard habit to break. I am tired of my fingers always looking like shit. I would like them to look nice for a change... We shall see how I do. I wonder if the skin will heal or if it will still be red and scabby looking? I need to find another habit to keep from biting my fingers. I can't smoke, Keith will kill me... I can't drink because of Em... Hmmm... I will have to think about this one.
So, Keith is gone. I was bored today and cleaned my kitchen. Yippee. I actually took things out of my cabinets, bleached counters, and uncluttered. I need help. LOL I also cleaned the inside of my car. I want to tackle my laundry room (okay, it's more or a closet), shelves but I think I filled my quota of analness for today. Have I told you that I have become obsessed with cleaning my new car? You would think that shit would wear off... it's me we are talking about. I am not usually good with my cars. I tend to let my inner slob come out when it comes to maintaining them. This car however I tend to freak if it's dirty. Like if I go to the beach and there is fucking sand sitting in it over night... I tend to not sleep at night and think about it. I guess it's true love people... I guess Keith will be happy to hear that I finally want to keep a car past the 24 month period.
I wonder if the creature knows that Keith is gone? I have been looking out back for him but have yet to see any signs that he has been by. Maybe he is afraid that Emily will want to befriend him. She is crazy when it comes to animals. We went to the farm yesterday where I take my lessons and she wanted to play with the horses. As in she wanted to run around in the pasture with them. I held her in my arms and showed her how to hold her hand to allow a horse to smell you or take food from you. I thought she would be apprehensive and maybe snatch her hand back once the horse approached her. She didn't flinch people. The horse licked her hand, nuzzled her, and smelled her tummy. She giggled in delight and didn't want to stop touching him. I have to say that she listened well when I told her things on how to pet and hold her hand. But she did not want to listen when I told her she couldn't get in the stall or pastures with them. She has no fear what so ever. They also have dogs that are eye level with Em and she was hugging them and petting on them as well. No fear. I don't want to teach her to fear animals but I some how need to teach her to respect them. I don't quite know how to do that yet.
Nothing exciting going on. It was a boring kind of day. Em is actually napping for the first time in forever. It doesn't happen often people. So, I am enjoying the down time for a bit.
Babies babies every where. Kari has one... Frannie has one... Friends in Blogger land have some... I can't help but have them on the brain lately. I really want another child. I want it to happen out of the blue again. I don't want to do the testing. I don't want to go through all that disappointment again. And let's face it. I am 35. It needs to happen soon or it shouldn't happen at all. It would not be fair to the child in my opinion. Anyway, so I want another kid but I guess I am not willing to do much to get it in the way of medical intervention. So, where does that leave me... I guess living life and seeing what happens. So, if any of you want to put in a few requests upstairs that would be nice. Maybe point out too to him that waiting another 10 years really isn't the best idea this time... Just sayin'
Anyway, I am leaving you with a song that I love. I think of Em of course when I hear it and all my nieces and nephews but since I have a new little girly in the family I tend to think of her a bit more when I hear it. I might have to do another video for her... hehe...
So, Keith is gone. I was bored today and cleaned my kitchen. Yippee. I actually took things out of my cabinets, bleached counters, and uncluttered. I need help. LOL I also cleaned the inside of my car. I want to tackle my laundry room (okay, it's more or a closet), shelves but I think I filled my quota of analness for today. Have I told you that I have become obsessed with cleaning my new car? You would think that shit would wear off... it's me we are talking about. I am not usually good with my cars. I tend to let my inner slob come out when it comes to maintaining them. This car however I tend to freak if it's dirty. Like if I go to the beach and there is fucking sand sitting in it over night... I tend to not sleep at night and think about it. I guess it's true love people... I guess Keith will be happy to hear that I finally want to keep a car past the 24 month period.
I wonder if the creature knows that Keith is gone? I have been looking out back for him but have yet to see any signs that he has been by. Maybe he is afraid that Emily will want to befriend him. She is crazy when it comes to animals. We went to the farm yesterday where I take my lessons and she wanted to play with the horses. As in she wanted to run around in the pasture with them. I held her in my arms and showed her how to hold her hand to allow a horse to smell you or take food from you. I thought she would be apprehensive and maybe snatch her hand back once the horse approached her. She didn't flinch people. The horse licked her hand, nuzzled her, and smelled her tummy. She giggled in delight and didn't want to stop touching him. I have to say that she listened well when I told her things on how to pet and hold her hand. But she did not want to listen when I told her she couldn't get in the stall or pastures with them. She has no fear what so ever. They also have dogs that are eye level with Em and she was hugging them and petting on them as well. No fear. I don't want to teach her to fear animals but I some how need to teach her to respect them. I don't quite know how to do that yet.
Nothing exciting going on. It was a boring kind of day. Em is actually napping for the first time in forever. It doesn't happen often people. So, I am enjoying the down time for a bit.
Babies babies every where. Kari has one... Frannie has one... Friends in Blogger land have some... I can't help but have them on the brain lately. I really want another child. I want it to happen out of the blue again. I don't want to do the testing. I don't want to go through all that disappointment again. And let's face it. I am 35. It needs to happen soon or it shouldn't happen at all. It would not be fair to the child in my opinion. Anyway, so I want another kid but I guess I am not willing to do much to get it in the way of medical intervention. So, where does that leave me... I guess living life and seeing what happens. So, if any of you want to put in a few requests upstairs that would be nice. Maybe point out too to him that waiting another 10 years really isn't the best idea this time... Just sayin'
Anyway, I am leaving you with a song that I love. I think of Em of course when I hear it and all my nieces and nephews but since I have a new little girly in the family I tend to think of her a bit more when I hear it. I might have to do another video for her... hehe...