Evilness
It's just not going to be a good day when you wake up to Psycho Aerobics instructor doing her thing on an intercom system at 6:30 on a Sunday morning. My very first thought on Sunday was " Are you friggin kidding me?" I guess some whacked out Marine Instructor decided his class needed to have a period of instuction by psycho instead of sleeping in. Lucky us to be living that close! I do expect while living on base to hear Marine things going on of course but come on, Sunday morning is a bit much!!
So anyway, it pretty much started a flow to my day that seemed never ending. Emma Lee was back and she was pissed! Good God, what happened to my little girl? Her evil twin invaded our house again yesterday, it was horrible. The whine and the crying did not stop at any point... To top it off I am still very sick. BUT we made it, it is Monday and this morning seems to be much better already. Em slept in and I took a shower first thing and cleaned up a bit. I bet an evil tooth is making it's way out... She only acts like this when her gums are bothering her. Poor her, poor me! Even Keith got some of Emma Lee's wickedness... She was watching Blues Clues when Daddy changed the station... Holy Moly, that was the wrong thing to do... evilness seeped out of very pore as she took her wrath out on her father for doing such a stupid thing! As she whaled and flung about I yelled to him " Turn it friggin back" ... why he would do such a thing when she is actually being quite and good for few minutes is beyond me....I know it took 9 years to have Em, but it is days like yesterday that make me want to go back on the pill!
I am trying to ween Em from the bottle now. She loves milk but she also is very attached to having a morning and nightly bottle... I manage to give her a cup during the day... once in awhile she wants a bottle at some point during the day but if she doesn't "ask" for it I don't give it to her. For the past two mornings I haven't given her a bottle first thing in the morning. I have wanted to stop giving her one for two reasons. 1- She is almost 14 months old and I feel she needs to be off of it. 2- It is filling her up too much so she eats less. When she doesn't drink a bottle in the morning she eats really well. So, we will see how she does without her morning bottle then work on the nightly one. I think that is going to be the hard one, just because it is more of a comfort thing at night.
Yesterday Keith got his haircut and came back with medicine for me along with my very favorite... Peanut Butter Cups. Yeah Keith!! Of course I saved it for after Em went to bed and I savored each and every bite. I haven't had chocolate in a long time... Well as soon as it was gone I felt bad, guilty... That has NEVER EVER happened to me. I so badly do not want to be fat again and I kept asking myself if it was worth it. I guess the answer is NO! I also had a major fat pill and had McDonalds the night we bought our TV because I was starving and made Keith get me something. Then the very next day Keith bought BK and my GOD my body was pissed! I made at least 10 trips to the bathroom that day. UGH!! I have never ever made myself feel bad for eating crap because I love it! But I refuse to be fat again, unless I get pregnant again of course! LOL (After yesterday though not really sure about that!) I am not at a point though were I feel comfy with my body again but I am getting there. My legs, arms, and face are all much smaller. I just want my tummy to get A LOT smaller. I guess I need to start do some sit-ups or something. It would just be so easy to slip back to my old ways of eating and drinking whatever I want... BUT I can't... I don't want to be the fat Mommy, the Fat Marine wife, and I just want to feel good about myself again. So, no more Peanut Butter Cups, no more BK and McDonalds for now... I know I can have it once in a while but not all that at once again. I need to get back on track from my slip up!! I have limited myself to diet drinks of course, no candy, and only eating out once a week at a nice resturant. Of course going for our morning walks and now I think I am at a point where it will make a difference to actually do some sit-ups. Maybe I will actually be able to take Em to the beach this summer and wear a bathing suit... I haven't worn one of those evil things in about 6 years!!!!
Well, I better go and attend to my child!!! LOL... Ta-ta for now
So anyway, it pretty much started a flow to my day that seemed never ending. Emma Lee was back and she was pissed! Good God, what happened to my little girl? Her evil twin invaded our house again yesterday, it was horrible. The whine and the crying did not stop at any point... To top it off I am still very sick. BUT we made it, it is Monday and this morning seems to be much better already. Em slept in and I took a shower first thing and cleaned up a bit. I bet an evil tooth is making it's way out... She only acts like this when her gums are bothering her. Poor her, poor me! Even Keith got some of Emma Lee's wickedness... She was watching Blues Clues when Daddy changed the station... Holy Moly, that was the wrong thing to do... evilness seeped out of very pore as she took her wrath out on her father for doing such a stupid thing! As she whaled and flung about I yelled to him " Turn it friggin back" ... why he would do such a thing when she is actually being quite and good for few minutes is beyond me....I know it took 9 years to have Em, but it is days like yesterday that make me want to go back on the pill!
I am trying to ween Em from the bottle now. She loves milk but she also is very attached to having a morning and nightly bottle... I manage to give her a cup during the day... once in awhile she wants a bottle at some point during the day but if she doesn't "ask" for it I don't give it to her. For the past two mornings I haven't given her a bottle first thing in the morning. I have wanted to stop giving her one for two reasons. 1- She is almost 14 months old and I feel she needs to be off of it. 2- It is filling her up too much so she eats less. When she doesn't drink a bottle in the morning she eats really well. So, we will see how she does without her morning bottle then work on the nightly one. I think that is going to be the hard one, just because it is more of a comfort thing at night.
Yesterday Keith got his haircut and came back with medicine for me along with my very favorite... Peanut Butter Cups. Yeah Keith!! Of course I saved it for after Em went to bed and I savored each and every bite. I haven't had chocolate in a long time... Well as soon as it was gone I felt bad, guilty... That has NEVER EVER happened to me. I so badly do not want to be fat again and I kept asking myself if it was worth it. I guess the answer is NO! I also had a major fat pill and had McDonalds the night we bought our TV because I was starving and made Keith get me something. Then the very next day Keith bought BK and my GOD my body was pissed! I made at least 10 trips to the bathroom that day. UGH!! I have never ever made myself feel bad for eating crap because I love it! But I refuse to be fat again, unless I get pregnant again of course! LOL (After yesterday though not really sure about that!) I am not at a point though were I feel comfy with my body again but I am getting there. My legs, arms, and face are all much smaller. I just want my tummy to get A LOT smaller. I guess I need to start do some sit-ups or something. It would just be so easy to slip back to my old ways of eating and drinking whatever I want... BUT I can't... I don't want to be the fat Mommy, the Fat Marine wife, and I just want to feel good about myself again. So, no more Peanut Butter Cups, no more BK and McDonalds for now... I know I can have it once in a while but not all that at once again. I need to get back on track from my slip up!! I have limited myself to diet drinks of course, no candy, and only eating out once a week at a nice resturant. Of course going for our morning walks and now I think I am at a point where it will make a difference to actually do some sit-ups. Maybe I will actually be able to take Em to the beach this summer and wear a bathing suit... I haven't worn one of those evil things in about 6 years!!!!
Well, I better go and attend to my child!!! LOL... Ta-ta for now