Has anyone seen my Sanity?
I didn't go out and buy the really nice with the tunnel fort because they didn't have any in this area and I am cheap so I didn't want to pay for shipping costs. I found the one below at Targets and it was only 20 bucks, not too bad. I am glad I didn't go all out because Em is kind of young for it and she tramples over it... She likes though.
It has been raining here since Friday. We haven't been outside to play, to go for walks, or just to get some fresh air... it stinks! I can feel my fatness creeping up on me... I guess I better go on the treadmill... The only problem with that is it cuts into my "Me" time. I can't do it while Em is awake so while she is sleeping is my only option. Something needs to be done though people... there is cake sitting in my house and I have a bit each day...
Em has been a little Monster the past few days. Those teeth better hurry up and come in. One has actually broken though, the other is still sitting under the gum. I guess I should be fortunate that she is sleeping well though. Her being so clingy and grumpy though is wearing me out. She crys over everything and screams when she doesn't get her way. UGH, I hate teething!
Keith checked out the rusty tool in the back yard... he has admitted that it is scary looking and he has no idea what it is either... so there people, I am not totally crazy!
In just a few weeks we go home (or our parent's home, whatever), and life is going to be crazy! It is hard having a toddler over other people's homes. You feel odd asking them to move things, you can't sit still because your kid is into everything and you don't want them to break anything, your kid is on overload from so much attention, there is no schedule, your kid doesn't sleep right.... Not that I am not excited to go back, I just know it is going to be alot of work for me! I just hope Em adapts to everything... she is pretty good at it... the last time though she didn't sleep well at all... which means I don't sleep well, and people, I need my sleep! Anyway, it will be good to see everyone and spend time with family. I guess I can sleep and sit when we get back!
Keith and I watched "Special deliver" on the Discovery Health Channel last night... I should not be allowed to watch that show... I re-live everything with Em. Why oh why can I not let go of all of that? I have in some ways but in others I haven't. She is very healthy and happy, why can't I just get on with it... I guess because I felt like I was going to lose her and a mother just can't quit put that feeling behind. I wish I could just take that step forward and put her prematurity issues behind me. Everytime she falls I think about her brainbleed... I know it is soooo stupid... I KNOW this yet I fear her hurting her head each time she falls! I still worry about her weight, her motorskills... sheeshhhh, She is almost 15 months old... Get a grip! I just have to remember that Em is fine, it is me that has the problem(s)! LOL
Anyway, I bet you are all sick of hearing that crap... I know I am sick of thinking about it! Em has another playgroup this morning. I feel like my child is the Holy Terror of the group, especially on the Tuesday ones. It is mainly all babies but they can stay until they can walk... Em tramples all over the place... The other Mothers with tiny babies look at me with their snide little looks. I can read their minds... "why can't she control her child".... I actually said to one mother yesterday " Don't worry, your day is coming soon"... LOL... I couldn't help it, here she is looking at me like a Bitch because Em came up to her baby and was just looking at it.... I pulled Em away and said that as I did... Ahhh, I hope I get to see her pulling her hair out when her child is mobile!
Anywho... I better go and make sure I have everything ready for Em... Later people!
It has been raining here since Friday. We haven't been outside to play, to go for walks, or just to get some fresh air... it stinks! I can feel my fatness creeping up on me... I guess I better go on the treadmill... The only problem with that is it cuts into my "Me" time. I can't do it while Em is awake so while she is sleeping is my only option. Something needs to be done though people... there is cake sitting in my house and I have a bit each day...
Em has been a little Monster the past few days. Those teeth better hurry up and come in. One has actually broken though, the other is still sitting under the gum. I guess I should be fortunate that she is sleeping well though. Her being so clingy and grumpy though is wearing me out. She crys over everything and screams when she doesn't get her way. UGH, I hate teething!
Keith checked out the rusty tool in the back yard... he has admitted that it is scary looking and he has no idea what it is either... so there people, I am not totally crazy!
In just a few weeks we go home (or our parent's home, whatever), and life is going to be crazy! It is hard having a toddler over other people's homes. You feel odd asking them to move things, you can't sit still because your kid is into everything and you don't want them to break anything, your kid is on overload from so much attention, there is no schedule, your kid doesn't sleep right.... Not that I am not excited to go back, I just know it is going to be alot of work for me! I just hope Em adapts to everything... she is pretty good at it... the last time though she didn't sleep well at all... which means I don't sleep well, and people, I need my sleep! Anyway, it will be good to see everyone and spend time with family. I guess I can sleep and sit when we get back!
Keith and I watched "Special deliver" on the Discovery Health Channel last night... I should not be allowed to watch that show... I re-live everything with Em. Why oh why can I not let go of all of that? I have in some ways but in others I haven't. She is very healthy and happy, why can't I just get on with it... I guess because I felt like I was going to lose her and a mother just can't quit put that feeling behind. I wish I could just take that step forward and put her prematurity issues behind me. Everytime she falls I think about her brainbleed... I know it is soooo stupid... I KNOW this yet I fear her hurting her head each time she falls! I still worry about her weight, her motorskills... sheeshhhh, She is almost 15 months old... Get a grip! I just have to remember that Em is fine, it is me that has the problem(s)! LOL
Anyway, I bet you are all sick of hearing that crap... I know I am sick of thinking about it! Em has another playgroup this morning. I feel like my child is the Holy Terror of the group, especially on the Tuesday ones. It is mainly all babies but they can stay until they can walk... Em tramples all over the place... The other Mothers with tiny babies look at me with their snide little looks. I can read their minds... "why can't she control her child".... I actually said to one mother yesterday " Don't worry, your day is coming soon"... LOL... I couldn't help it, here she is looking at me like a Bitch because Em came up to her baby and was just looking at it.... I pulled Em away and said that as I did... Ahhh, I hope I get to see her pulling her hair out when her child is mobile!
Anywho... I better go and make sure I have everything ready for Em... Later people!