Just Shut up Already
Have you ever talked to a person and thought in your head "Dear LORD when is this person going to Shut the hell up?" Yeah, I am totally that person lately... the person not shutting up.
Kari and I were talking the other day on the phone and I think I heard her say about 10 times that she was getting off the phone. Hello Julie, get a clue, she wants to hang up! I just didn't shut up. I went on and on about baby shit, potty training... blah blah, you name it. Lately I have been thriving off of adult conversation. I think because I say the word "No" about million times a day to a little Turkey who doesn't like to listen to me talk has turned me into a person who doesn't shut up while conversing with adults. I am probably driving everyone crazy. I call my parents all the time, I call bug my friend Frannie, and I am probably driving the nice couple on the farm whom I just met crazy. I went out to their farm this morning and helped feed the horses. I had a lot of fun, I am learning a lot. I think though that they might regret letting the crazy person who doesn't ever shut the hell up come on their farm. I am always asking a shit load of questions about the farm, the horses, the shows they do, animals.... you name it. I never was one of those people that talked other people's ears off but I just can't seem to stop myself. I never felt comfortable around people I don't know. This couple is so nice though and are so welcoming that it is easy to talk to them. It seems that when I met people for the first time I always come off as a Bitch because I am so quiet and people take it as I am uppity... It doesn't help that I have this wrinkle in between my brows so it always looks like I am frowning. Anyway, these people can't think I am a bitch because I am hardly quiet... crazy yes, but Bitch no.
Speaking of the farm, I am loving it. I went for my Lesson which ended up being on Thursday for weather related reasons.... It was awesome. I admit the last time I had a real lesson was probably about 20 years ago (Okay,that dates me), so I was a little nervous. Not about being on the horse but looking like an idiot. Let's remember the amount of paranoia that is soaked into the core of my cells that make me who I am. I really want to learn how to ride properly... at the same time I keep thinking that as soon as I leave the people there are probably like "Did you see that old fart on the horse? She thinks shes is getting a horse at her age? She can't even sit right on a horse let alone control one".... Not only that but of course I talk their dang ear off so they are probably applauding once I leave! LOL See... paranoid! (Okay, let's take a moment to remember that I have good reason to be a bit paranoid. Hello, I had a so called "good" friend that held stuff against me the entire time of our friendship without me knowing... then proceeded to make me feel like a shitty person by throwing it all in my face and ending our friendship. So, now I feel like I might be saying things or doing things to upset people all the damn time. I am afraid that people might be taking everything I say and do the wrong way... ) Any who... I had my lesson. Then Saturday morning I helped feed the horses, groomed one, bathed one... and the owners even let me ride a horse to practice on. I don't know how many of you have ridden a horse but it takes a lot of practice not only to learn how to direct and control a horse in the proper way but both rider and horse have to learn how to anticipate each other's movements... that takes time, patience, and lot of riding experience. I want my own horse... I want to learn how to ride properly and safely but I also want to be a good rider so that my horse and I can enjoy each other's time together and not have it be a struggle on either of us. I need to learn about a horses personality, the care it receives, the medicines it might need, the feeding... every aspect... it all takes time and it is an experience that can only be achieved by hands on training. It is one thing to say you want a horse so you can ride it... it is entirely different thing to be a responsible owner and care for your horse in the proper way. It is a lot of work and I am so thankful that this couple is so eager and willing to help me and of course others who have a love for horses. I must thank them daily, I even email them to thank them. They are probably sick of me...LOL, It is just not every day though that you have the opportunity to have people like them in your life and make your dreams achievable.
So, spring is in the air here down in the South. The green pollen powder is every where coating everything. I know though that once it's gone the humidity is coming. Warm weather, playing in parks, going to the Beach, riding and learning about horses, picture taking, a new little niece coming into the world... I want to enjoy this summer and everything it has to offer. Keith will be leaving again soon. He is going to a place that is not as safe as the last place in Iraq that he was at before. I am not happy about it but what can I do? I can enjoy the summer together... pray and hope that those 7 months go by quickly...
Anyway, I think I'll shut the hell up now.
Kari and I were talking the other day on the phone and I think I heard her say about 10 times that she was getting off the phone. Hello Julie, get a clue, she wants to hang up! I just didn't shut up. I went on and on about baby shit, potty training... blah blah, you name it. Lately I have been thriving off of adult conversation. I think because I say the word "No" about million times a day to a little Turkey who doesn't like to listen to me talk has turned me into a person who doesn't shut up while conversing with adults. I am probably driving everyone crazy. I call my parents all the time, I call bug my friend Frannie, and I am probably driving the nice couple on the farm whom I just met crazy. I went out to their farm this morning and helped feed the horses. I had a lot of fun, I am learning a lot. I think though that they might regret letting the crazy person who doesn't ever shut the hell up come on their farm. I am always asking a shit load of questions about the farm, the horses, the shows they do, animals.... you name it. I never was one of those people that talked other people's ears off but I just can't seem to stop myself. I never felt comfortable around people I don't know. This couple is so nice though and are so welcoming that it is easy to talk to them. It seems that when I met people for the first time I always come off as a Bitch because I am so quiet and people take it as I am uppity... It doesn't help that I have this wrinkle in between my brows so it always looks like I am frowning. Anyway, these people can't think I am a bitch because I am hardly quiet... crazy yes, but Bitch no.
Speaking of the farm, I am loving it. I went for my Lesson which ended up being on Thursday for weather related reasons.... It was awesome. I admit the last time I had a real lesson was probably about 20 years ago (Okay,that dates me), so I was a little nervous. Not about being on the horse but looking like an idiot. Let's remember the amount of paranoia that is soaked into the core of my cells that make me who I am. I really want to learn how to ride properly... at the same time I keep thinking that as soon as I leave the people there are probably like "Did you see that old fart on the horse? She thinks shes is getting a horse at her age? She can't even sit right on a horse let alone control one".... Not only that but of course I talk their dang ear off so they are probably applauding once I leave! LOL See... paranoid! (Okay, let's take a moment to remember that I have good reason to be a bit paranoid. Hello, I had a so called "good" friend that held stuff against me the entire time of our friendship without me knowing... then proceeded to make me feel like a shitty person by throwing it all in my face and ending our friendship. So, now I feel like I might be saying things or doing things to upset people all the damn time. I am afraid that people might be taking everything I say and do the wrong way... ) Any who... I had my lesson. Then Saturday morning I helped feed the horses, groomed one, bathed one... and the owners even let me ride a horse to practice on. I don't know how many of you have ridden a horse but it takes a lot of practice not only to learn how to direct and control a horse in the proper way but both rider and horse have to learn how to anticipate each other's movements... that takes time, patience, and lot of riding experience. I want my own horse... I want to learn how to ride properly and safely but I also want to be a good rider so that my horse and I can enjoy each other's time together and not have it be a struggle on either of us. I need to learn about a horses personality, the care it receives, the medicines it might need, the feeding... every aspect... it all takes time and it is an experience that can only be achieved by hands on training. It is one thing to say you want a horse so you can ride it... it is entirely different thing to be a responsible owner and care for your horse in the proper way. It is a lot of work and I am so thankful that this couple is so eager and willing to help me and of course others who have a love for horses. I must thank them daily, I even email them to thank them. They are probably sick of me...LOL, It is just not every day though that you have the opportunity to have people like them in your life and make your dreams achievable.
So, spring is in the air here down in the South. The green pollen powder is every where coating everything. I know though that once it's gone the humidity is coming. Warm weather, playing in parks, going to the Beach, riding and learning about horses, picture taking, a new little niece coming into the world... I want to enjoy this summer and everything it has to offer. Keith will be leaving again soon. He is going to a place that is not as safe as the last place in Iraq that he was at before. I am not happy about it but what can I do? I can enjoy the summer together... pray and hope that those 7 months go by quickly...
Anyway, I think I'll shut the hell up now.