Thursday, August 02, 2007

Thus Far

With this pregnancy I again am getting some "wonderful" advise right from the get go. My favorite is "Don't stress" like I did last time. For some reason people seem to think that because I was stressed that THAT was the main reason for me delivering early. First off... for those of you that don't know. I bleed through out the WHOLE pregnancy with Em. I had to have ultrasound every week... Yeah, I was a bit worried she might not make it. Call me cookey. Secondly, me being worried did not cause Preeclampsya to reek havoc on my body. Nor did it cause the massive blood clot or my placenta tearing away from the Uterus. So, you can say that I am a bit sick already of people telling me to have more of a "positive" mind set during this pregnancy... because "maybe those things won't happen again if I stay positive...."

Anywho... Besides that... I am good. I have been going over in my head things that I will do differently this time with this baby. Me above EVERYONE else wants to have a natural birth. I want that more than anything. Knowing that the end result of this pregnancy is not having surgery and a healthy baby is most important to me. However, my doctor is going to have to decide that after going over my records. It really depends on how the last C-Section was preformed. So, that is a wait and see for now.
Another thing I can safely say is I promise myself I will "Never say Never"... I learned that quickly with Em. I know I have awhile but I am having a difficult time deciding whether or not to nurse. With Em I felt I didn't have a choice because she desperately needed it. My issue with it is me. If I happen to get an infection (AKA Mastitis), I will more than likely have to have surgery to replace an implant since the infection does not leave the implant itself. On the other hand, I really want to nurse. So, I have a lot of thinking to do about this...
Some other things I have been thinking about is what I really need to buy and what I had last time that I really didn't need. I really don't need a changing table. I hardly ever changed Em in a designated area. I am not going to get all the bedding this time. I didn't use the comforter for Em and I changed sheets so often from pee accidents that I could have cared less. I will get a bumper pad and I still have Em's sheets... I am going to get a smaller portable swing. My bigger one annoyed me last time because it was difficult to bring it to different rooms or bring it anywhere if we were visiting. I plan on splurging on a nicer pack and play. I don't care so much about cute little outfits this time either, at least while they are so tiny. I had so many newborn dresses for Em and I never left the house to put her in them. This time I want a oncies. That is all I ever had Em in, that or those sleeper things. I had to change her all day anyway, and I was the only one who saw her!! I think I am going to get one of those slings as well... with chasing a then 4 year old and a newborn I think it might be easier to have one.
So, as you can see I have a list going. I am sure it will change as time goes on. Being pregnant again you can't help but at laugh at some of the stuff you did and had for your first child. Another lesson that I learned with Em was the whole eating thing. I used to stress over how much Em ate or didn't eat because she was so small. Now I know it doesn't matter... No matter how old or what size you can't force a child to eat!! They will eat when they are hungry and that's that!!

Besides me making mental lists in my head everything is fine. Em is good. Although she loves babies she doesn't seem to be too thrilled that Mommy has one in her belly. There are times when she wants to kiss the baby but for the most part she screams that it is " Aunt Kawwi's baby" She seems to think that because Aunt Kari just had a baby that it can't possibly be mine.... Or else she is in denial....LOL
We are all going to NY in next week. We need to get some things organized there and Keith really wants to see Sami before he goes. He has yet to. It is kind of a last minute decision but I guess that is how things go with us!! Then shortly after we get back Keith leaves for Iraq and Em and I leave back for NY. Things as always are hectic and chaotic with us!!

So, until later... In the mean time why don't you tell me what you would do or did differently with your second...