A BIG First
Well it is happening people.... So long as the weather allows safe passage for my baby girl because I am not about to just hand over my daughter during a blizzard... Emily is spending the WEEKEND with her Aunt Kari, Uncle Ian, and her cousin Scott. I have NEVER been away from Em, except for her time in the NICU.... How do I feel about this you ask? Hmmm, so much is going through my tiny little brain.... In one way I am rejoicing inside with the word "Freedom" ringing in my ears... It is only ONE way though that I am feeling and it is a VERY SMALL way! I actually feel sick to my stomach, have not been able to sleep, and plan on getting highly intoxicated through the whole weekend to get through it! Yeah, I AM that bad!
To be honest people, I truly was NOT going to let her go when they first asked. I really don't think Em will be hard to deal with during the day but come night I think Kari and Ian better be prepared... The devil might pay them a visit! But anyway, that wasn't the main reason for not letting her go. The fact is is that I am still having issues with her Daddy being gone. Every time she is crying hard, upset, or is in pain, she cries for Da-da.... I didn't think it was fair to have her away from her Mother as well. BUT I am hoping that Kari makes sure that she gets too busy to even notice that I am not around.... That is why I am worried about night time... and Mommy not putting her to bed.... Should be interesting for them! Keith called me to calm my nerves and said he wouldn't be surprised if they went on birth control after this weekend... Funny, but oh so true!
Don't ask me why I changed my mind if I am THAT sick with worry... I guess because it is not fair to Ian and Kari to not allow her to go because I am a freak! That pretty much sums it up.... so don't leave me all this crap in my comments about having a good time and relax and enjoy myself while she is gone because I can tell you right now it ain't going to friggin happen!! I probably won't be blogging this weekend either for that matter because I will be passed out from drinking myself into a bloody stupor!
So, on another note... kind of.... I actually did see Kari and Ian yesterday... They drove here to see their son play his violin at a school concert. It was sooooooo awesome and I am not just saying that because Scott is my nephew... It was really really good! Emily also went and enjoyed it... She loved humming and moving to the music and most of all, clapping once a piece was over! I am so glad that she went and had fun. She passed out though in my arms once we finally made it home... she was beyond tired! OH this so reminds me.... Kari can finally attest to the fact that stupid shit has been happening to me since Keith left! I swore to you people that I was not making this shit up and AT LAST somebody has seen it with there own eyes!! And a side note to God, THANK YOU FOR FINALLY ALLOWING SOMEONE ELSE TO SEE ALL THESE LITTLE GAMES YOU ENJOY PLAYING ON ME, AT LEAST PEOPLE WILL NOT THINK I AM 100 PERCENT CRAZY!!
While we were out in the car waiting for the Fuckard that blocked my Jeep in, I shared a little story with Kari and Ian that I forgot to mention to you all because it was the day before I left to go to NY... So here it is!! My little pain and the ass dog Bree once again took flight on me and left! Only this friggin time she RAN IN THE FUCKING WOODS! Luckily Emily was napping... I THOUGHT that I would be able to catch her so I ran in after her... Yes, that is right people, I fucking ran in the woods where the fucking creature lives!! I swear to you people that my heart was pounding pretty fucking hard!! Anyway, I chased her for a couple of minutes over dead tress and all... swearing at the top of my lungs, but of course! My neighbors at this point know better than to pay any mind to me...So anyway, at some point I stopped and realized my lack of sense of direction was kicking in and I couldn't see or hear the little shit. So, I started walking back... Half crying and half screaming profanities at Bree telling her to go Fuck off with the creature and once again thanking Keith for being in Iraq! So, anyway, I had to get my bearings straight, found the fence, and started walking back towards my house when I heard the little shit running..... So, being the crazy person that I am I started screaming "Bree you fucking little shit, get your fucking ass over here... if I leave tomorrow without you then you are going to have to live in the woods with the creature forever!" So, by some minor miracle the little shit decided to come to me... I picked her ass up half kissing on her and half scolding her....All while telling her that she IS A LITTLE SHIT and making sure to point out that she was lucky we weren't headed towards a local shelter that very day... That fucking dog is killing my fucking brain cells, I swear.... So, RIGHT after that I was trying to do something with the outside hose and managed to spray myself with it and got my hair and face soaking wet.... 2 minutes after that Elaine walks in my back yard and is looking at me like I am insane.... Geee, I wonder why?
Anyway, I hope you all have a great weekend... I hope I live through mine.... Ta-ta for now...
To be honest people, I truly was NOT going to let her go when they first asked. I really don't think Em will be hard to deal with during the day but come night I think Kari and Ian better be prepared... The devil might pay them a visit! But anyway, that wasn't the main reason for not letting her go. The fact is is that I am still having issues with her Daddy being gone. Every time she is crying hard, upset, or is in pain, she cries for Da-da.... I didn't think it was fair to have her away from her Mother as well. BUT I am hoping that Kari makes sure that she gets too busy to even notice that I am not around.... That is why I am worried about night time... and Mommy not putting her to bed.... Should be interesting for them! Keith called me to calm my nerves and said he wouldn't be surprised if they went on birth control after this weekend... Funny, but oh so true!
Don't ask me why I changed my mind if I am THAT sick with worry... I guess because it is not fair to Ian and Kari to not allow her to go because I am a freak! That pretty much sums it up.... so don't leave me all this crap in my comments about having a good time and relax and enjoy myself while she is gone because I can tell you right now it ain't going to friggin happen!! I probably won't be blogging this weekend either for that matter because I will be passed out from drinking myself into a bloody stupor!
So, on another note... kind of.... I actually did see Kari and Ian yesterday... They drove here to see their son play his violin at a school concert. It was sooooooo awesome and I am not just saying that because Scott is my nephew... It was really really good! Emily also went and enjoyed it... She loved humming and moving to the music and most of all, clapping once a piece was over! I am so glad that she went and had fun. She passed out though in my arms once we finally made it home... she was beyond tired! OH this so reminds me.... Kari can finally attest to the fact that stupid shit has been happening to me since Keith left! I swore to you people that I was not making this shit up and AT LAST somebody has seen it with there own eyes!! And a side note to God, THANK YOU FOR FINALLY ALLOWING SOMEONE ELSE TO SEE ALL THESE LITTLE GAMES YOU ENJOY PLAYING ON ME, AT LEAST PEOPLE WILL NOT THINK I AM 100 PERCENT CRAZY!!
While we were out in the car waiting for the Fuckard that blocked my Jeep in, I shared a little story with Kari and Ian that I forgot to mention to you all because it was the day before I left to go to NY... So here it is!! My little pain and the ass dog Bree once again took flight on me and left! Only this friggin time she RAN IN THE FUCKING WOODS! Luckily Emily was napping... I THOUGHT that I would be able to catch her so I ran in after her... Yes, that is right people, I fucking ran in the woods where the fucking creature lives!! I swear to you people that my heart was pounding pretty fucking hard!! Anyway, I chased her for a couple of minutes over dead tress and all... swearing at the top of my lungs, but of course! My neighbors at this point know better than to pay any mind to me...So anyway, at some point I stopped and realized my lack of sense of direction was kicking in and I couldn't see or hear the little shit. So, I started walking back... Half crying and half screaming profanities at Bree telling her to go Fuck off with the creature and once again thanking Keith for being in Iraq! So, anyway, I had to get my bearings straight, found the fence, and started walking back towards my house when I heard the little shit running..... So, being the crazy person that I am I started screaming "Bree you fucking little shit, get your fucking ass over here... if I leave tomorrow without you then you are going to have to live in the woods with the creature forever!" So, by some minor miracle the little shit decided to come to me... I picked her ass up half kissing on her and half scolding her....All while telling her that she IS A LITTLE SHIT and making sure to point out that she was lucky we weren't headed towards a local shelter that very day... That fucking dog is killing my fucking brain cells, I swear.... So, RIGHT after that I was trying to do something with the outside hose and managed to spray myself with it and got my hair and face soaking wet.... 2 minutes after that Elaine walks in my back yard and is looking at me like I am insane.... Geee, I wonder why?
Anyway, I hope you all have a great weekend... I hope I live through mine.... Ta-ta for now...