The Lone Silver Bullet
I go to get something to drink out of the fridge and no more sweet Iced Tea... Damn, no more Diet Pepsi... Double Damn. So then I remember Keith's mini fridge in his Man's room.... Must go and look for something to drink. Open the door and what do I see? Beer. I didn't even hesitate, just reached in and grabbed one. I hate Beer, HATE IT! But yet here I sit belching nasty beer smelling burps. Just been one of those kinds of days and what better way to end it than with a fuzzy head and big smelly burps? Sounds good to me... I bet it sounds good to Keith too since he hasn't had a drink since he left. This one's for you babe....
Actually the past couple of days have been "One of those days". Just those days when everything seems to get under you skin....
So anyway, my parents called me this morning. For the second time this week they asked why I haven't updated my Blog. Hmmmm, let's see.... I don't think you all want to hear about my boring ass couple of days, that's why. How can you put a spin on sitting outside watching Em look at acorns? Not that entertaining.... How about how Em has been saying the word Car? Noooo, still not that entertaining.... How about Em has been walking like a big girl holding hands when we go out places? Still no? Hmmmm, how about that I cleaned out Tucker's ears and all this brown nasty shit came out? Sorry people That's all I got, take it or leave it.
I have just been in a mood.... I have been hearing Christmas music and seeing Christmas Trees at the stores and thinking about Keith. Mind you, Keith has always been a scroodge for any holiday... Before we had Em we had only put up a Christmas Tree twice. And I swear I only got gifts because Keith felt like he had to, not because he wanted to for Christmas and other things like birthdays and such. To him it is "Just another day". Part of his mind set is because he had been in the Corps since he was 17 and I guess it is or has to be when you are alone. It has been hard trying to get him into the spirit.... But last year he did really well with it being Em's first Christmas. It was actually allot of fun for us even though Em was really too young to understand anything at all. I keep thinking of that and how it took just a single little girl to get Keith into this spirit of things after I had been trying for all those years.... Now he will be gone, far away, and unable to see his Turkey open Santa's gifts. I am happy that we are going to NY to be with family. I don't think I could give Emmy a magical Christmas with Keith gone this year. I am happy that we will all be together and Em will have her Christmas... but yet apart of me is still sad, I want Keith under the tree with a big ribbon come Christmas morning... Of course Keith wants his new Xbox 360 under the tree with a big bow, but that is a different story....
Aren't you glad I Blogged people? Depressing isn't it....LOL On a good note I have just one week until we go to NY. I don't know if my parents know the magnitude of destruction their granddaughter is capable of...LOL You have been warned....
OH, now that Keith has gotten his surprise in the mail I can tell you all what I did for him. Oliver North came to Jacksonville to promote his new book. Well, I got his new book signed for Keith and mailed it to him... I had my picture taken with him, talked a bit with him, and had him write something for Keith, like I just said...LOL. So, Keith tells me he got the book and said Thank You... Then my ever so Green Goblin said to me..." So, Did Oliver North flirt with you?" Ahhh, Keeeeith... I met Oliver North, Former Colonel in the Marine Corps... Not some Friggin Horny ass Rock Star... What the Hell? I don't even want to hear anyone say I am jealous ever again... that is has got to be the stupid damn ass question he has ever asked me!
So, Guess I am done Bloggin now. I must go and finish my piss water and then go to bed. Pray to the sleep Gods for me....
Actually the past couple of days have been "One of those days". Just those days when everything seems to get under you skin....
So anyway, my parents called me this morning. For the second time this week they asked why I haven't updated my Blog. Hmmmm, let's see.... I don't think you all want to hear about my boring ass couple of days, that's why. How can you put a spin on sitting outside watching Em look at acorns? Not that entertaining.... How about how Em has been saying the word Car? Noooo, still not that entertaining.... How about Em has been walking like a big girl holding hands when we go out places? Still no? Hmmmm, how about that I cleaned out Tucker's ears and all this brown nasty shit came out? Sorry people That's all I got, take it or leave it.
I have just been in a mood.... I have been hearing Christmas music and seeing Christmas Trees at the stores and thinking about Keith. Mind you, Keith has always been a scroodge for any holiday... Before we had Em we had only put up a Christmas Tree twice. And I swear I only got gifts because Keith felt like he had to, not because he wanted to for Christmas and other things like birthdays and such. To him it is "Just another day". Part of his mind set is because he had been in the Corps since he was 17 and I guess it is or has to be when you are alone. It has been hard trying to get him into the spirit.... But last year he did really well with it being Em's first Christmas. It was actually allot of fun for us even though Em was really too young to understand anything at all. I keep thinking of that and how it took just a single little girl to get Keith into this spirit of things after I had been trying for all those years.... Now he will be gone, far away, and unable to see his Turkey open Santa's gifts. I am happy that we are going to NY to be with family. I don't think I could give Emmy a magical Christmas with Keith gone this year. I am happy that we will all be together and Em will have her Christmas... but yet apart of me is still sad, I want Keith under the tree with a big ribbon come Christmas morning... Of course Keith wants his new Xbox 360 under the tree with a big bow, but that is a different story....
Aren't you glad I Blogged people? Depressing isn't it....LOL On a good note I have just one week until we go to NY. I don't know if my parents know the magnitude of destruction their granddaughter is capable of...LOL You have been warned....
OH, now that Keith has gotten his surprise in the mail I can tell you all what I did for him. Oliver North came to Jacksonville to promote his new book. Well, I got his new book signed for Keith and mailed it to him... I had my picture taken with him, talked a bit with him, and had him write something for Keith, like I just said...LOL. So, Keith tells me he got the book and said Thank You... Then my ever so Green Goblin said to me..." So, Did Oliver North flirt with you?" Ahhh, Keeeeith... I met Oliver North, Former Colonel in the Marine Corps... Not some Friggin Horny ass Rock Star... What the Hell? I don't even want to hear anyone say I am jealous ever again... that is has got to be the stupid damn ass question he has ever asked me!
So, Guess I am done Bloggin now. I must go and finish my piss water and then go to bed. Pray to the sleep Gods for me....