New Year, Now What?
So, the end is coming... Now what happens? Well, one thing is Em and I are going back home to North Carolina. Our journey in NY has almost come to an end... Not just yet, we aren't leaving until the 12th but it is creeping up. The big thing of course is Keith coming home. That is still a few months away but it just seems that much closer with the new year rolling in. I am anxious, excited, and yet nervous. I wonder if every thing he has been through if it has changed him somehow, is he still the same guy as when he left? I think he has a better appreciation for how quickly Emily grows... she has changed so much since he left. I think we both have a better appreciation for each other now as well. Keith and I have been through allot these past 11 years... Infertility, Emily's birth, Living in Japan (I mean Hell), moving constantly, deployments... you name it. This though, this separation has been the hardest because of Em, it has changed us both. We may never be the same when he comes back. Why? Because we both have been in a battle of our own and know the outcome has resulted in the knowledge of how much we need, depend, and love eachother... So this new year brings our family closer together through the miles that we have been apart.
This year also brings in Em changing into her own person. The baby is gone and the toddler trying to figure herself out is here. Her childhood starts this year... camping, parks, beach fun, playdates, picnics, museums... This is the year Keith and I start molding our daughter to become a good, decent, caring, loving, strong, independent person. This is the year we can take her hand and walk her through life and show her the world. This is the year we start thinking of bringing another life into this world, another person to share our love with, another beautiful child to care for, and to make Em a big sister...
So Christmas has come and gone like whirlwind. Fun, tiring, family time, food,lots of toys... That about sums it up. Oh yeah, LOTS of money spent... Em is loving her things... It is good.
It was hard having Christmas without Keith. I know it was hard for him too, but it is just one more thing that we have gotten through... I had to keep reminding myself that there is always worse problems than mine. People are sick, people have loved ones lost, some wives were unable to talk to their deployed husbands... I at least got to talk with Keith for a bit. I had to stop feeling sorry for myself, Keith had nobody and at least I was with family. I feel badly for him being alone there... next year we will all be together.
Well, I know I have been a big slacker in Blogger land and my comments are a sure sign of that. Not sure if anyone will even read this but once I get back to NC I will be back on track so don't stop reading. I will be back, it is just now things are always hectic and basically I just want to spend time with my family whom I rarely see. Thanks for checking in and once I get back to NC I am sure I will have more stories of the creature, my pain in the ass dogs, and my normal every day crazy life... Until later....
This year also brings in Em changing into her own person. The baby is gone and the toddler trying to figure herself out is here. Her childhood starts this year... camping, parks, beach fun, playdates, picnics, museums... This is the year Keith and I start molding our daughter to become a good, decent, caring, loving, strong, independent person. This is the year we can take her hand and walk her through life and show her the world. This is the year we start thinking of bringing another life into this world, another person to share our love with, another beautiful child to care for, and to make Em a big sister...
So Christmas has come and gone like whirlwind. Fun, tiring, family time, food,lots of toys... That about sums it up. Oh yeah, LOTS of money spent... Em is loving her things... It is good.
It was hard having Christmas without Keith. I know it was hard for him too, but it is just one more thing that we have gotten through... I had to keep reminding myself that there is always worse problems than mine. People are sick, people have loved ones lost, some wives were unable to talk to their deployed husbands... I at least got to talk with Keith for a bit. I had to stop feeling sorry for myself, Keith had nobody and at least I was with family. I feel badly for him being alone there... next year we will all be together.
Well, I know I have been a big slacker in Blogger land and my comments are a sure sign of that. Not sure if anyone will even read this but once I get back to NC I will be back on track so don't stop reading. I will be back, it is just now things are always hectic and basically I just want to spend time with my family whom I rarely see. Thanks for checking in and once I get back to NC I am sure I will have more stories of the creature, my pain in the ass dogs, and my normal every day crazy life... Until later....